DIARY OF A HALF HUMAN TIME LORD

Chapter Eighteen

Can't sleep again so here I go with another entry. Everything is quiet and everybody's asleep save for me and little Boots who's running around and around my leg. Suzanne is sleeping on the sofa. I checked on her before doing this and she's sleeping peacefully which is a mercy. I know how painful cancer can be and the last thing I want is for my best mate to be in agony all night. I'm so glad she was able to accept what we told her and still likes me even though I am half alien. She's such a good friend and knowing that she's able to be so open towards me and Rose makes me even more determined to find a cure for her. Come hell or high water, I will save her somehow and by God, Pete Tyler better not do anything to prevent it or I'll unleash the Oncoming Storm on him. I kinda figured that once Pete got wind of what Rose might do, he'd probably try to stop her and I also figured that sooner or later I would probably be in danger of being kidnapped by them. I share the Doctor's hatred of Torchwood and I know they can't resist having a half human clone to experiment on. But I won't worry about that right now. I have bigger things on my plate and if they come after me or Rose at some point then I will show them what it means to mess with me.

"Jonathon?"

Jonathon looked up and saw Suzanne standing where Rose stood just the night before giving him the same puzzled look. He grinned.

"I keep a diary. I told Rose last night because she caught me doing the exact same thing," he said.

"Wow, a half human diary. Can I see what half humans write about?" she teased.

"Nah, can't do that, top secret," he said, closing it quickly.

She pouted and then smiled warmly as she came around to him. She gave him a concerned look as she put her hand on his shoulder.

"What's wrong? Are you still worried about me?" she said.

"Partly. I worry about a lot of things. I have a very busy, active mind," he said.

"You shouldn't do that. You'll end up as ill as I am," she said.

Jonathon nodded.

"I know, I know I shouldn't. But I have so many things to sort out and writing in this diary helps me do it."

Suzanne pulled out the chair beside him and sat down.

"About what the Doctor said and did to you?" she said.

"Partly. I just need to find out who I am inside. Like the Doctor said, find the Time Lord within and be him."

"Well for starters, you're not gonna find it in the pizza shop," Suzanne said.

"I know that. I know making pizzas is not what Time Lords should be doing but…"

"Then don't do it."

"Yeah, but…what will all of you do?"

She chuckled.

"Find another bozo to sucker into working there," she said with a wink.

She sobered up and took his hand.

"Jonathon, you don't belong there. You don't belong in a menial job like that. I knew that even before you dropped the bombshell this evening. You're not meant for work like that. There's no shame if you quit especially since I'd rather see you be a Time Lord than a pizza maker."

She patted his hand.

"And don't worry, we can still be mates, you and me and the rest of the gang. You're not getting rid of us that easily. But if you are meant for better things then go be a better person. Don't be stuck in a dead end job the rest of your life."

"But if we do find a way to travel in space and perhaps time, you'll come, right?"

"Do I have a choice?" she teased.

Jonathon shook his head rapidly.

"Thought not," she said as he chuckled.

She patted his hand again.

"Well…some of us have to go to the loo and go back to bed so we can get up and work. Some of us don't have a day off today."

She stood up and gently kissed Jonathon's forehead.

"I'm glad you trusted me enough to tell me the truth. And trust me, I won't tell a soul. I like that you're unique like that and the Doctor was a fool to throw you out the door instead of getting to know you better."

"Thanks," Jonathon said softly.

"Anytime. What are best mates for. Now…get some sleep and quit worrying about every little thing. Things'll turn out for the best, you'll see. So…goodnight."

"Goodnight, Suzanne."

She gave him another little kiss on the forehead and Jonathon watched with silent happiness as she walked off towards the bathroom.

After Suzanne used the bathroom and went to bed, Jonathon did the same and went back to bed. Rose was fast asleep and he paused to gaze at her lovingly, feeling blessed that she was his. As he rounded the bed, he had a sudden thought. He stared at his side of the bed for a moment, hesitant on whether or not to act on his thought and then figuring it couldn't hurt, he did what he had seen humans do in films and on the telly and got down on his knees beside the bed. He clasped his hands together in front of him and closed his eyes.

If there is a God out there, he thought. Please forgive me for not talking to you until now but I never had an urge to do this until I became half human so I'm asking you as a half human to save a fellow human being, a sweet, wonderful woman who is suffering needlessly from a stupid human illness. I want you to save her or at least allow us to save her. Please watch over her and keep her safe until you heal her or we find a cure…and please watch over my beloved Rose. She is the light of my life and I know I would go mad if something happened to her and she was taken from me too soon. Um…that's really all I have to say, I don't really care about me but…if you could help me to become the person I was meant to be that would be nice as well. Well, see ya.

Jonathon opened his eyes, got up and crawled back into bed. He snuggled up against Rose and gazed at her until he could no longer keep his eyes open.

The next morning, Rose woke early intending to go to work. She went to the bathroom and started to climb into the shower when she suddenly had a change of heart.

"No," she said to herself as she shook her head. "I can't face him, not today."

She went to her purse, pulled out her mobile and called in sick to Torchwood. Once she was finished, she breathed a sigh of relief, put the mobile back in her purse and went in to sleep for a few more hours.

When she rose, she fixed a quick breakfast for her and Suzanne. Jonathon was still asleep and they let him rest while they ate and chatted. Before she left to take Suzanne to the pizza shop, Rose made sure Boots had plenty of food and water and gave her a couple of strokes along her back. Suzanne tickled under her chin and grinned when Boots purred at her. Then both of them grabbed their purses and went out the door.

Rose drove her over to the pizza shop and parked nearby.

"Thanks so much for last night, loved the pizza and conversation," Suzanne said to her.

"No worries, we loved havin' ya," Rose replied.

"Well, I'm glad that Jonathon told the truth about himself. I caught him writing in his diary this morning and I told him that he needs to quit this place and go be the person he was born to be."

"I agree," Rose said. "I thought it a strange choice when he first told me he was workin' here. It's because he wanted to be independent of me and I understand that. But he could have found somewhere better than this. But then again, we never would have met ya."

"Yeah and I never would have met you lot and been offered a chance to travel the stars. And…if somehow you do figure out a way, I'd love to come."

"Brillant," Rose said. "I would love for you to see time and space with us. It's dangerous at times but it's amazing as well."

"Yeah, I get the dangerous with the whole Davros thing," she said, rolling her eyes.

She smiled at Rose and put her hand on Rose's shoulder.

"I know it was horrible for the Doctor to leave you here after you spent all that time looking for him again but at least he left you with a wonderful bloke."

"I know and I know that he and I are meant to be together. I'm not bitter about the Doctor leavin' me here anymore."

"Good because I'd hold on to that boy, he's a keeper. Strange that you met a decent chap and he's from outer space."

Rose chuckled and nodded.

"Yup, had to find an alien before I found a top notch bloke," she said.

She gave Suzanne a hug.

"You have our number, yeah?"

"Yup, I do and I'll call if I need you and you do the same if something happens to you or Jonathon, yeah?"

"Yeah, don't worry, Jonathon won't let me live it down if something happens and you're not in the thick of things," she teased.

They finished hugging and Rose watched as Suzanne got out of the car. They waved goodbye and Suzanne slammed the door. Rose watched her go inside the pizza shop and then she put the car in gear and headed back towards home.

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