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Chapter 5: Wander Away The first two days of our stay in our new house were the most peaceful. Edward and I spent our days with our daughter, and I found that while I missed our extended family, I liked that it was only the three of us. “Momma?” I turned from looking out of the large kitchen window, to find my little girl walking sleepily toward me. It was still pretty early in the morning, and I was surprised to see her. When I held out my arms she leaped into them and we cuddled. “Do you know what we get to do today?” I felt her head shake once against my shoulder and smiled, walking up the stairs as I began to tell her. “Today our furniture will get here and we can make this place look more like a house.” At my words, she lifted her head. “Will Jacob come too?” Renesmee hadn’t brought up his name since we moved and I was surprised, though I really didn’t know why. Jacob was her best friend, and at times there didn’t seem to be much of an age difference between them. “No baby, not this time.” In my daughter’s room I sat on her bed, gently rocking her. Bringing up Jacob had put my own mind at work, thinking about Charlie. I was already missing him, and toyed with the idea of suggesting to the Chief, that he move here with us. Of course I knew he wouldn’t leave. He was comfortable in Forks, but still the idea was tempting. Renesmee’s head nearly sliding of my shoulder brought me out of my thoughts. Gently I put my hand up to support her, turning slightly as I leaned down, laying her on the mattress. Edward was already at our side, and as I stood up I watched while he tucked our baby’s comforter around her. Once we had kissed Renesmee, I took his hand and led the way out of her room. “How did the hunting go?” “I had to travel several miles, but I did manage to find a black bear.” He smiled. “Emmett would have been proud.” That caused me to smile as well. Emmett loved hunting bears, and more specifically tormenting them nearly to death before he went in for the kill. I looked at my husband’s shirt seeing that it was spotless. “Do I pass your inspection Mrs. Cullen?” I reached out and brushed my hand against his blue shirt. “I think so. You know, I still don’t think it’s fair that you can hunt and come back without a spot of blood on you.” As a newborn I was still advanced in my years, but I had yet to figure out how to keep my clothes as spotless as Edward’s My husband’s hands against my cheeks, turning my head up to look at him, took away any other thoughts I was having. When his lips crushed down against my own, I didn’t care about how either of us looked in that moment. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~ There are very many moving men in my house. Momma said I needed to be good and stay out of their way, and she helped me get a blanket to put out in our back yard. I brought Jack with me, and my favorite puzzle. It has horses on it with horns. Daddy says they are unicorns. “Jack, do you suppose we should go and look for a unicorn?” Jack’s been helping me. But he didn’t want to talk today. “Jack, it is not polite to be so quiet.” I picked him up and hugged him. “I know you miss Jacob, I do too, but Momma says we get to see him in four more days.” I held up my hand and showed him four fingers. “See?” Sometimes I wish he could talk. There is a movie I saw with Claire, when I was with my Jacob, and it was about a girl who lived with really mean people. She got a Faery Godmother to give her a wish. If I had one of those, I would wish that Jack could talk. I looked at the house and listened. Daddy was talking to the moving man and Momma was in my room putting other sheets on my bed. It was crazy around in the house, and I decided we should go venture. I get to do that in Forks. I got my purple back pack and put Jack in side and zipped it, but kept it so he could see. After I got it on, all by myself, I ran into the woods. I can run very fast, but not like Momma and Daddy can. We stayed on the path because there are too many big things, and I’m very small. “Jack, do you know how to talk so that we can call for the unicorns to come?” I sighed. “I don’t know either.” We ran and ran, but I got a little tired so we stopped, and I found a big rock to sit on. “Unicorns, I want to see you,” I yelled. I didn’t yell really loud, because I didn’t want them to be scared of me. When I didn’t feel tired, I got up and stood on top of my rock. “We need to go in the woods but I’m scared Jack.” I didn’t want to be afraid, but it wasn’t my woods like at Grandma and Grandpa’s big house. “Will you be brave for us?” He said he would, so I decided we should just go, and so we did. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ I never really knew what went into having other people move you into a house. Edward was comfortable with telling our movers where to put things, and I was comfortable with letting him delegate that work. When my mom moved away from Forks I was too young to remember any of that, and by the time I was old enough, we were living in Phoenix. We never moved away from there until I went to live with Charlie, and she and Phil went on the road. Once I finished cleaning Renesmee’s room, which consisted of picking up and putting away all the puzzles she had worked, I decided I needed to check on her, realizing guiltily that I hadn’t in over an hour. Downstairs I found the front door blocked by Edward’s piano, and was surprised to see it here. He was helping to take the door off of its hinges. “Are your parents already packing up?” “Not really, but Carlisle thought it might be nice to have a few things here to make Renesmee feel more at home,” he answered, as he finished helping one of our movers set the door off to the side. We shared a kiss before I headed out into the overcast, gloomy day. I expected to find our baby where I had left her, so when I didn’t, all of my vampire senses went into over drive. When I sniffed the air, I followed her scent to the edge of the forest. “Crap.” I looked once back at the house before I tore into the woods, following my daughter’s scent, praying that she was safe. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~ “You’re not much bigger than I am,” I said to the little bear, who was sitting on the ground in front of me. “Where did your Momma go?” Little Bear didn’t say anything to me, and I reached out, petting his ear. I think he liked that because he rubbed it against me and I laughed. “You are very funny and very cute. Uncle Emmett hunts big bears, but I promise to tell him that he has to leave you alone.” I don’t like big bears. They are very scary, but this baby bear was really friendly. “I’m trying to find unicorns. Do you want to come with me? Come on.” I backed up and my new friend stood up. He was just a little taller than me. “Come on.” I backed up a bit more, and he got on all his feet and came with me. “Do you know where we can find the unicorns?” We were going up a very big hill, and it was hard to do, but I wanted to find my unicorns so I decided we should keep going. Little Bear made a growling noise, but it didn’t sound mean. I turned around and he wasn’t there. “Little Bear, I thought you were going to help me.” I was all by myself now and I reached back to get Jack but I forgot, and then I thought about it, and he was lost too. “Oh no Jack, where did I put you?” I ran down the hill and that’s when the ground moved and I fell down. I rolled a little bit but I got back up. “Jack, you can’t be lost.” I turned all around but everything was the same. “Jack, come back, I promise never ever putting you down again.” The only thing I heard was rain, but I didn’t feel it because it was still high up, and the trees were keeping it away. “No, I’m not going to get sad.” I sniffed the air but all I spelled was wet, dirt, trees, and some animals, but not Jack. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Never in my life had I been so afraid. I lost Renesmee’s scent five miles west of the house. Staying where I was, I pushed my shield completely away from my body, focusing on my thoughts, praying Edward would hear them and come. I didn’t have the luxury of going back to get him, and I wished I would have brought the phone. “Bella?” A second later he was at my side. Edward stood perfectly still, shutting his eyes, and then he was gone. My guilt for losing Renesmee kept me rooted in place. I knew I needed to go with him, but I couldn’t move. Being here wasn’t like being in Forks, and I remembered what I had thought last night about not having the other members of our family around. How could I have even believed for one second that we could do this on our own? I was so drawn in on my own thoughts, that I didn’t notice time passing, or much of anything until a twig snapped somewhere off in the distance. I crouched low, sniffing the air. Suddenly I was running at top speeds and met Edward only a mile away. He held our sleeping daughter in his arms, and I realized then that it was dark. My husband started to put Renesmee in my arms, but I shook my head, not trusting myself to hold her. I wasn’t going to hurt her, but it had been my lack of observation that had got us into this mess in the first place. Edward ran ahead of me, leading the way, and by the time we got back to the house, the movers had gone and everything was more or less in place. While Edward headed upstairs to put Renesmee to bed, I walked into the front room and sat down on the new black, leather sofa. I rested my head in my hands with my eyes shut, and didn’t acknowledge my husband as he sat at my side. “Please talk to me.” I looked over at him, and a moment later his arms were wrapped around me. “Bella, you can’t blame yourself. We should have told her she couldn’t wander around all alone.” “We are vampires Edward, we should have been able to hear her leaving, and yet we were too busy fixing this place up, too self absorbed. We’re lucky that Caius didn’t send someone to take her. I thought I could handle this, moving away, doing the mom thing alone, but it’s clear that I’m just capable of screwing it all up. At this point, Renesmee will likely land in therapy.” “Stop that!” I looked up at him and saw the furry in his eyes. Edward quickly calmed himself and kissed my forehead. “Bella, this is our first child and what parent hasn’t made mistakes. Yes we are vampires, but that doesn’t exclude us from making the wrong choices. No one expects us to be perfect, and yes, we should have been listening to her, but she’s safe now, and we will be careful the next time.” Yeah, we would be careful and I was never going to let Renesmee out of my site again. I still felt awful. “Come on, you didn’t even hold her when I brought her back.” I let him guide me through the hallway to the Foyer, and up the stairs. At her door, he stopped. I guess Edward was right, I did need to see her and forgive myself, but before I did I reached up, wrapping my arms around his neck. “Thank you for being so level headed.” Edward kissed my lips before we parted, and I went in to our daughter’s room. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Renesmee lay in the center of her bed with all the covers kicked off. She was curled into a ball, hugging Jack against her chest as she slept. I toed off my shoes and curled up next to her. “I’m sorry for losing you today baby,” I whispered, as I stroked my fingers through her soft curls. “Daddy and I got all wrapped up with everything, when we should have been thinking about you.” My baby continued to sleep, though at one point she rolled over cuddling into my arms. I took that opportunity to place her hand on my cheek, and shut my eyes as I watched her dream. The images were blurry, and then crystal clear as I saw a bear, not much bigger than her. It seemed as though my baby had made a new friend, and I was impressed that she hadn’t killed him. I wondered what had caused her to wander off on her own. The dream went back to mostly being colors and fuzzy shapes, but I continued to watch them with her, relieved to have my baby in my arms. “Tomorrow, we are going to talk about sticking around here my little wanderer.” I leaned my head forward, kissing Renesmee’s soft curls before I carefully moved away from her, and stood back on my feet. I took a soft blanket from the end of her bed and put that over her. Once I was satisfied that Renesmee was comfortable, I headed to my own room, where I knew Edward was waiting. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~ When my eyes opened, I was in my room and not in the leaves in the woods. I had Jack again and I smiled. “We got found Jack.” My tummy growled at me because it was hungry, so I got off my bed and walked down the hall to Momma and Daddy’s room. The door was open so that was good. When it isn’t open I don’t get to go in. Momma and Daddy have private time. Sometimes they make funny noises. I told Uncle Emmett that one time and he fell out of his chair laughing. “Daddy, how did you find Jack?” He was sitting at his big desk, but he got up and got down so I could see him. “Jack wasn’t very far away from where I found you. We need to talk about that,” he said. Daddy picked me up and we sat down on the big chair that is in front of the fire place. “Am I in trouble? I just wanted to find a unicorn, and I go in the woods at Grandma and Grandpa’s all the time.” I didn’t want my Daddy to be mad at me. Daddy hugged me close, rubbing his hand on my back, and I like it when he does that because I feel better. “No, Momma and I never explained to you why you shouldn’t wander off on your own. It is very important that you wait for us, from now on Renesmee.” Daddy sat me on his lap so we could look at one another, and his eyes were very serious. “But I didn’t get hurt.” I kind of liked my venture. It was fun, and I met my Little Bear. “No, but you did get lost.” Oh yeah, I forgot that part. I wanted to show him Little Bear, so I put my hand on his cheek. His eyes got very big and I looked down, pulling my hand away. “You had quite an adventure,” Daddy said, and I looked back at him because he wasn’t mad at me. “I named him Little Bear, because he is little. If you see him, or if he has brothers and sisters, will you promise not to drink his blood?” My Daddy hugged me again, and I hugged him back. “I promise. Speaking of that, I bet you are ready for a hunt.” “Yes I am, but we have to go another way so we won’t hurt them.” Daddy carried me in my room, and Momma was there. We got me all ready to go, and she told me what Daddy said. “I want you to promise not to wander away again.” “I promise Momma.” I got on her back, and we left to go have some breakfast, so my stomach would stop growling. ~*~*~*~*~*~ AN: Hello everyone. I appologise for taking so long to update this. I had a hard time figuring out how to write this chapter, but I think I worked everything out. Renesmee's point of view has a big part here. You might have noticed that when she talks she doesn't always say things correctly but thats a kid for you. Other than that I hope you enjoyed what you read. Sorry it is so short this time around, but I'll update soon. Thanks for reading and if you don't mind please review.
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